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well... justin is in the shower and I have decided to post an entry..

all at the serwylo/lewer house is good :)

I still hate my job and mind you we are now unionised.. I want to leave now more than ever! This union could potentially get me more money an hour.. there are some homes with this same union making 16/h! but it could take a year or 2.. which I don't think I am willing to wait for.

I am currently looking for anything.. I'm willing to work for less even though I really can't afford it..
I am also concidering selling my little blue car.. or maybe trading it in, I have yet to decide.. but the best choice for me right now would be to sell my car, I would have more money at the end of the month and far less worries about tires and oil changes. I could always save for a car in a year or two and end up paying less a month than I am now anyways.

I still want to go back to school but I can't think of what for nor can I afford it.. I dumped the teacher thing for vet assistant once again.. it wont happen anytime soon.. I have also posted my resume on monster.ca in hopes that I could find SOMETHING there..

anyways.. I will perhaps continue tomorrow.. he is done his shower and we are gonna watch a movie :) buh bye for now :)

ok so I have no idea what to got Justin for Christmas.. remember the puffin idea I had.. yeah apparently not a good idea. I've got nothing!!!!!!

anyways ummm.. that's really all I have to say at the moment :) love lots!

My first entry in over a week.. I still miss Lilly.

My parents are going to pick up her remains today, we had her cremated.

I am so incredibly bored today.. I have nothing to do except dishes! gah! I work at 4.. which sucks!

I can't wait to start my full time 7-3! Then I wont be bored when justin goes to work.. and when I get home from work I'll have stuff to do.. like take Charlie for a walk! Or run errands or something!!!!!

I have a new book that I could read... but I really need to be in the mood to read, which I am not. I could go for a walk but why!? it's no fun going on your own and I don't even have my i-pod to listen to! no cable to upload new songs or to charge the darn thing!

nothing on T.V

see I wish I was still in school cause then at least I could be doing homework and being all productive! but nooooooo

don't get me wrong I wouldn't change my current situation, living with Justin and working full time.. I'm just bored silly!!!

I still do however want to go back to school.. only problem there is I think justin wants to only stay at the new place for a year.. and there;s no way I'll be able to afford more and go to school at the same time.. I don't know what I'm gonna do.

I have a facebook... My cousin told me about it.. it's alright I guess, same idea as myspace.. I was just really bored so I made a profile

ok that's all I have to say.. I need to really find something to do!

one more day for lilly.. I hate this so much..

aside from that though.. justin bought me these chocolates that litterally melt in your mouth! almost as good as sex!! but not  lol!

anyways.. I'm not much in the mood to write anything else.. I actually think the crying is about to start

Lilly will no longer be with us as of monday at 12:15

*it snowed today it snowed today it snowed to-day!*

I thought it was quite pretty! one of the residents poined it out to me while I was gathering my dishes for washing :) at first I was a little upset I must say, but then I ealised that SNOW MEANS IT'S ALMOST CHRISTMAS!!!!!!! so now I am excited even more than before!!

work was alright, I kinda felt like I served breakfast alone though, there was a new guy today and he had only had one training shift which was last night, and he was so not ready to serve by himself, even if it only was breakfast. I mean he wasn't by himself but he should have been given more training shifs before being thrown in.. it sucked big time for me! But he did an ook job for a newbie :P I can't be hard on him though, I was new once upon a time.

life is wonderful and always will be :)

I know I have my down days.. but then I think of my friends and most of all my love, justin :) and I know everything is better :)

otay bye :)

it's official.. the christmas shopping has begun!!!

I bought 3 things today and they are wrapped :) I have loads of wrapping paper too :)

I also bought stockings for jutsin and myself :) they are being embroidered as we speak :) The lady told me that they'd call me when they were ready :)

 have decided that I want to print off all of my pictures and put them into albums.. :) so many memories in so little time.. I'm looking at our pictures from niagara and omg I love justin so much!

OMG GUYS!!!!! THERE'S A HALLOWEEN TOWN 4!!!!!!!!!!!! and they atart playing every friday night at 7pm on family channel!!!!! gah!!! omg excitement!!! I love the halloween town movies!!!

ok OMG! the best birthday EVER in the history of birthdays!

The whole weekend was perfect.. I couldn't have asked for anything more.. I cried so many happy tears that I'm surprised I didn't shrivel up from lack of water in me!

I can't even begine to write an entry.. I'd be here for a week writing it all! if anyone wants to see my pictures from friday I'll post them on my MSN space shortly:)

don't fucking ask me that's how! oh bugger... I am seriously lacking brains to write a cover letter, and I really need to get it done by like friday! I need this so badly.

The worst part is that this is so not my first time writing one! I wrote one for co-op, the pet store, and I think we were forced to write one yet again in my english lit class in High school. So my question is this.. why on earth is this so difficult for me?! Did someone force stupid juice down my throat on the weekend?!  I knew it.. you weren't giving me water.. it was stupid juice! BAH! oh well.. I'll keep trying and hope that I get this job. Especially since I think zellers may have fired me or something, who knows, I need to go in and talk to Nora and find out what the heck's going on!

I am however getting lots of extra hours from Chartwell.. already this week I've picked up 12 hours:) that's $120 translated to my hourly pay ^_^ oh happy day! (haha.. that wasn't meant to rhyme)  and before that I believe I have another 12 which makes 24 in total this week.. and I might pick up another 4 tomorrow.. and possibly 4 on friday.. except I think we might be going for dinner and then suede? but I'm not sure about that cause Tanya wants us to go to Justins house after dinner and before suede.. but she is bringing Jeff.. and becky knows well why that would be a problem 0_0

I guess I'll have to wait until closer to the day whether I can take the shift or not.. but either way.. I get to go dancing on friday!!!! OMG I love dancing so much!! I don't even care that I kinda really suck at it:) no one knows I'm *usually* sober when I dance haha.. oh damn.. my secret is revealed!

This has turned into such a babbling entry! oh man.. LOL. I seem to have a habbit of that these days..

OMG WTF SONG IS THIS RANDOMLY PLAYING ON MY I-TUNES!?!?!?! haha.. oh wait.. it's alanis morissette.. I was like wtf?! I don't remember downloading this song 0_0 but it's ok.. I haven't completely lost my mind.. not yet at least:P so this summer is gonna be pretty awesome I hope.. except that justin is moving.. that really kinda sorta sucks the big one.. actually I lied.. it's not gonna "really kinda sorta suck the big one"  it's gonne just suck royal! I'm gonna miss him so much.. and I have no idea when he's leaving. He did however promise that he would come back for my birthday if he leaves before.. and I believe that he'll keep that promise:)  There are only so many people in my life that keep their promises.. and I know Justin is one of them.

you know what.. my hair looks like I just dyed it.. mostly cause I haven't showered since.... monday?! OMG you didn't just read that cause that's sooo nasty!!!  I'm gonna go have one as soon as I finish this long ass babble! I so don't really feel like working today.. but I need the money and it's only 4 hours.. all I can say is that I so better not have guests again 0_0 that always ends up being hell.. the residents all hate me those nights cause Peter said that "Guests always come first" so the residents don't get my usual service... they get half ass cause I have to worry about the guests. Thank god for jennifer.. if she wasn't there I'd be so screwed.. she helped me carry plates so that I only had to make one trip in and out of the library, made life easier.. that and she did a fancy presentation on the plates and she didn't want them all wrecked by me trying to carry 4 plates at once. Which I am more than capable of.. but the plates looked soooo pretty that I didn't want to ruin them even a bit:P and the cake she made for them was so fance lookin too.. she put a slice of pineapple under the cake, chocolate sauce on top, and swished it all around so it looked almost fake, and then she put squirts of whipped cream on the plate.. haha.. awwwww.. I love jenn.. she's so awesome!

it's about 1230 and the house is clean.. I wanted to be a little more productive than that today.. but I have to work at 4 again.. maybe friday I can do something useful.. Justin wants me to get the boat in the water, I have to talk to my dad about when that can happen.. lol.

oh I also did some laundry.. so there's clean clothes all on my bed and I think 4 bras now hanging from my ceiling fan.. lmao! oh man.. that was a funny x-mas party :P you know what though ladies and gents.. I think I might have my b-day party at my house... I haven't decided for sure yet..  I want to go out.. and I want to drink.. but I have no where in town to stay cause justin will be moved so he also needs a place to stay.. and Tanya has to leave for toronto the next morning super early... omg I should just call John and ask him if I can stay at his house.. and then Justin can come with me.. OMG THAT WOULD MAKE JOHN SO MAD!! ahahahahahahaha!!

speaking of him.. he keeps calling me and bugging me to come over.. you know I dont think he's getting any from his girlfriend.. lmao! serves him right.. I gave it to him like every day almost.. and now he gets none! what a little shit  he is.. lol. oh well.. I'm sure someone else will appreciate me way more than he ever did! and someone will eventualy actually love me.. not just tell me that they did.. cause I know he never meant  it.. he just wanted to keep me hanging.. it worked for a while.. but not anymore!! It was funny cause last I talked to him he invited me over and I said "No I odn't think so, I've been at Justin's house all weekend and I just got home tonight and neither Justin nor my parents would be too happy with it" hahaha.. oh man.. that must have bothered him.. I was with another guy for what was it like... 3 days straight.. oh man... I love it! Jutin said to me that I should go there and use him.. just so he knows how it feels... I so would go over, sleep with him, then randomly leave in the middle of the night and never call him or answer when he calls, block him from messenger etc.. but I don't ever want to be with him again.. even if it is only to get back at him.. I want nothing to do with him, all I want is my bracelet back,, but to get it I have to go see him... ugh! I'll tell him to meet me for coffee or something.. then I wont have to be at his house.. at least if we are at timmy's he wont try anything.. and I need to bring someone with me.. then he'll definately not try anything!! 

ok I think that's it for now.. I really need/want a shower.. omg you know what would be brilliant?! Justin's shower!! it so has a bench!!! lmao!

Love you all forever and ever!!!! <3

EDIT: OMG LMFAO!!! I changed my mood icon cause the "dirty" one for the penguins was kinda boring.. lmao.. oh man.. the bears kick ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!

oh boy.. that is all

this whole entry is pretty much a complaint:P

guys.. I am so sick :( it started yesterday morning.. I woke up with a sore throat, I thought nothing of it at the time so I drank some water.. then I had some tea with honey to make sure it didn't get worse (I have a very important house party to attend on friday;)) My throat felt better after the tea.. but then I started coughing a bit. I cleaned out my car and was productive yesterday:) then I went to my parents shop to earn some extra cash, I have alcohol to purchase on thursday since the stores will all be closed on friday. While I was at work.. I started to feel extreemly weak.. so I ate something.. I figured maybe my blood sugar was low? but nope..

My mum sent me home cause I looked terrible.. Tanya called me though.. and so I had to make a stop at the dollar store on my way and then show Tanya the stuff I got.. lol.. I'll explain later about that:P anyways.. I was starting to feel better.. then I got home at 6ish.. made some soup, and crawled into my nice soft blanket.. at first it was keeping me nice and toasty:) then I started to get cold.. more so than I already was. I was talking to Justin on MSN.. but he needed to start getting some more packing done.. so he called me.. it's easier to talk on the phone and pack than it is to talk on MSN and pack.. lol

Since there is no servie in my room.. I moved to the couch with my duvet and my nice, comfy, soft blanket:) I was talking to justin for only about 10 minutes before I started shivering! Justin was like "omg Jordan!" lol.. I have never been so cold before.. then finaly Jutin made me move back to my bedroom.. which I did.. but my stupid phone kept cutting him out.. so I ended up talking to him on MSN for like 2 more minutes just saying goodnight etc. and I closed my computer and passed right out.. it was like 10ish.

I woke up at 1150 I think it was.. my mom came in to check on me and I felt like I was on fire!! I wanted to jump in the frozen river!! I was burning up to the extreem! sweating all gross like! my mom got me a glass of water and some advil? or tylenol? I dont remember what it was.. lol.. it took me about 10 minutes to fall back asleep.. my head was pounding. Then I get a freaking text message from cory at like 1230 "hey hows school? been thinkin stuff over and am starting to miss you maybey we can try hangin out again if you want to" to be quite honest I don't.. lol.. his temper is something I am already trying to get away from.. clearly I would rather be with.. nvm.. we wont go there lol.   (and NO I don't mean John)

I woke up this morning at 630 and went upstairs to get ready for work.. my dad said "wtf are you doing?" I said "I have to work this morning" he said "I don't think so! get the fuck back to bed you goof! you're calling in sick!" so I did.. and here I am at home trying to recover so that I can go to Justin's party on Friday:)

that was the longest complaining entry ever! sorry guys! but if you read this far I'll give you a kiss!!! lol.. clearly it's painstaking to read such crapola! lol

omg frustration!!!! my dad told me he was gonna send me into town to run an errand for him.. so I got all ready.. I look half decent for once.. and then my mom asks.. "jordan, where are you going? I thought you didnt start work till 4?"

"I'm going into town for dad.. " she says "why? oh to get the table thing? we have no way for you to pay for it cause they wont take my credid card from you"

pain in the butt! I'm all nice and dressed.. and I have no where to go!! I can't wear what I'm wearing to work.. cause I have to wear dress pants and a white top.. sure my hair can stay up all nice.. but that's it! ugh.. soooo frustrating!!!

anyways.. I cried a bit last night.. I was talking to justin on the phone, and Tanya on MSN.. she started to cry cause she was thinking about justin leaving.. and then I told justin that we were gonna miss him and then my waterworks started.. I tryied not to cry too much while I was on the phone with him.. I did pretty well.. but he had had practically no sleep the previous night so I let hime go.. but as soon as I hung up the phone.. I started bawling.. I cried myself to sleep actually.. he made me promise that I would sleep! lol.. and I did.. sure that's probably not what he had in mind.. but still. lol

some things just wont be the same when he's gone.. martinis, coras, towels, and a couple other things that justin knows about ;) lmao.. no nothing scanadlous you dirty dirty minded people! either way.. I'm going to miss him.. and what worries me the most is that.. what happens if he loses contact with us? he has a girlfriend there, and when he's not workng or in school or doing homework.. he'll want to be spending time with her.. which is cool.. but what if she takes up ALL his free time? next thing I know.. he wont come back to see me and Tanya's place in September, and he wont be back for the Christmas party that will at that time be mine and Tanya's party... and his birthday is around the same time.. (but I didn't just say that lol he dosent want ppl to know when his birthday is) and ugh.. there's so many things that could go wrong! I'm so happy for him though, he's going to school for something he's into, and that's awesome!

anyways.. I'm so going to pull a Justin! I notice that only 2 people have fixed it so that they are on my new LJ.. lol.. the rest of you should get on that! especially Justin!!!!! and matt.. if he ever comes back.. lol

I'm buggering around with my web cam.. trying to get a decent picture.. dosent work so well.. but that's ok.. there are a few pictures of me that are just about as half decent as I feel today.. lol.

Other than that I am trying to pass the boredom.. I could solve one ofmy CSI cases.. but my dad will come down stairs and get mad if he sees that cause I'll be doing unproductive things! lol! I could clean my room.. but I don't feel like it.. I think though maybe tomorrow since I don't have to go to class.. I'll clean my car! omg it needs to be cleaned so bad.. mostly cause I don't have a back seat! lol. that could be problematic. I wonder if there's a law against having too much junk in the back seat of you car?? who knows.. lol. hopefully I don't find out the hard way! haha!

I so want to swim in the pool at justins new temporary _{(that dosent look right)} place..  I haven't been swimming in a long ass time! last summer before that water was warm enough.. I had to have surgery.. and clearly my sticthes weren't healed nearly enough to swim in that junk.. lol.. well they are healed enough now! sure they still look nasty.. and make me feel all self conscious.. but no one sees them so it's all good I suppose.. but when we get back from dancing.. I'll want to swim sooo badly!! I'll just strip down to my bra and underpants and dive right it! lol.. except I might be intoxicated.. so maybe not such a god idea.. I don't really want to drown.. lol. so long as people watch me to make sure I don't hit my head, and that I stay above water for the most part.. it should be fun stuff!!


OH!! 45 DAYS!!

amanda just called.. so I'm gonna go visit her for a bit before work!! buh bye for now!!! p.s.. this last bit is so not supposed to be purple!

I am convinced that nothing is going to work in my favor.. anyways.. since I don't feel like locking this entry I am going to be extreemly vague and I would like it if any comments could be that way as well in regards to my previous statement. lol.. look at that.. me trying to sound all smart.. lmao!

anyways.. I work tonight from 330-900 at zellers.. booooring! oh well.. then after that it's off to suede for about 1030!! I want a martini sooo badly.. but if I have one without justin.. it just wouldn't be the same! lol

ok off I go before I am late!!

love you all big as the universe!!

now that I have my new journal, and my mum dosen't know about it.. lol

I got a notice in the mail today for my licence renual.. it's that annoying little sticker that goes on my licence plate.. $74.00 it's gonna cost me 0_0 and it's due in May. speaking of may... 49 DAYS! lol.

I heard Nadia talking about me behind my back today.. for god only knows what reason.. but I don't really care.. I'll just do my work without her.. besides.. she's always the one comming to me for help. She hardly talked to me today.. wasn't that nice of her?

I'm from now on only going into class for tests and in class assignments.. all I need to do is not fail any classes and it'll be all good! I've picked up a part-time courses book from school to start looking at what classes I need to take the vet tech course.

I had such an amazing night sleep last night! I didn't toss and turn at all.. and as soon as I got off the phone with Justin at like.. 5am 0_0 I passed right out! I was soooo comfortable! There was only one way it could have been more comfortable..

anyways! lol.. I have a midterm again tomorrow.. so off I go for now!

ok guys and gals.. new Live Journal! add me plz so we can go back to the way it used to be!